Cutthroat magician

Cutthroat magician,
you spit fire and red-hot
vitriol and spit.

Cutthroat magician, do you
care about me?

Cutthroat magician,
I sometimes whisper your name
in the dark, when there's nobody around.

Cutthroat magician,
what comes to mind when you hear my name?

Cutthroat magician,
if you think the way you speak,
you never hear my name.

Cutthroat magician,
who am I to you?

Cutthroat magician,
your words hit my heart like
a cigarette burning into my skin.

Cutthroat magician,
my skin is on fire.

Cutthroat magician,
my skin is on fire when it aches and it stings
to sit in that skin around you.

Cutthroat magician,
what do you know of family?

Cutthroat magician,
what does it mean to be a mother
but not have a child?

Cutthroat magician,
did you know that I have feelings?

Cutthroat magician,
half the time you speak,
I cry.

Cutthroat magician,
do you ever think about me?

Cutthroat magician,
do you ever think about me
or my feelings?

Cutthroat magician,
what did I do to you?

Cutthroat magician,
my blood is red,
and I bleed when I hurt.

Cutthroat magician,
who am I to you?

Cutthroat magician,
my tears taste salty, and you know
I don't like the taste of salt.

Cutthroat magician, would you ever
cut my throat?

Cutthroat magician,
I think you would cut the throat
of a faggot, if only you had the chance.

Cutthroat magician,
what does it mean to cut a throat?

Cutthroat magician,
did you think about me when I told you
I was suicidal?

Cutthroat magician, why
did you tell me to jump out of the car?

Cutthroat magician, why
did you tell me to jump out of the car,
when I told you I wanted to jump out of the car?

Cutthroat magician,
do you know how much you hurt?

Cutthroat magician,
You are making me hate the familiar sound
of your familiar voice.

Cutthroat magician,
when will you stop?

Cutthroat magician,
when will you stop being familiar?
I don't want you to be familiar.

Cutthroat magician,
will you please leave me alone?

Cutthroat magician,
you told me you hated me,
but I cannot simply become a different person.

Cutthroat magician,
do you hate me?

Cutthroat magician,
you make me hurt in ways
that blood and bruises cannot.

Cutthroat magician, do you
care about me?

Cutthroat magician,
I don't think you care about me.
I don't think you care about me at all.